i'm alive and kicking again... in my blog, that is... and perhaps starting to in reality as well. i know it's been a while. been pregnant, gave birth, got busy taking care of baby and eldest daughter, got sick, got stressed and burnt out, had to deal with some post-natal anxiety and depression, had no maids, etc, etc, etc.... well, what can i say? but that's life... life just suddenly throws a lot of gifts and bricks at you. and if you're not ready, coping and adjusting becomes quite a struggle. plus they say in every event there's a lesson life is teaching you so you just got to listen... and if you don't get it, sorry but expect another hit yet again! maybe i'm just a slow learner...  

but just for now... just for this moment, it feels good to be able to sit down again, face my computer and write an entry in my blog. not for anyone else but myself. and i think i need to do this more often.

i need to find my own space. i am again in search of my solace and my private sanctuary...